[angelstouch]

My experience has left a lasting effect on my life. It Felt like a Dream although unlike a dream it has never faded by time. I remember every sound, every smell, every word like it was yesterday.
I was very ill with cancer, i had had cancer several times before but this time i was really ill and not expected to pull through. I wasn?t scared even then I believed in the spirit world. I just knew it existed; I had seen lots of spirits as a child. At the time of this bout of cancer; I got home from hospital. I remember my son giving me a drink, and putting a book by me and he went out.

The next thing I remember is feeling a tightness in my chest, and then I was in a tunnel it was very dark.
I knew I was surrounded by people but I couldn?t see them, then I saw a little white light it began to get stronger and stronger brighter and brighter. A woman was coming towards me. It was my mother my lovely mum who had passed when I was 14.
She came to me and said 'you have to go back'. I looked at her and said 'no' I want to stay.
She said 'Annette if you go down there, there is no going back. You have to go now'. I asked her why and started to cry because.
I had never felt so peaceful and warm and safe in my life, she put her hand on my shoulder and said 'Annette I am telling you, you have to go back you have a lot of work to do'. I said 'mum please let me stay. I don?t want to go back I want to stay'. I was sobbing begging her to let me stay with her i breathed in her scent, memories flooded my mind and i wanted them to become reality again. She cuddled me and said one day you will understand. I felt a pulling then I woke with a doctor standing over me and he was taking a tube out of my throat, he turned and said to someone she is back. i had had a heartattack, my son had returned home as he had forgotten his book, and found me. I recovered and eventually left hospital again returned home and for ages after felt puzzled and confused by what had happened. not only did i prove the doctors wrong with their diagnosis of my cancer but i felt different i didnt know why but i knew things had changed.
It wasnt until years later when i began what my devlopment that i realised what my work was.

[Suebh]

Thank you for the story Annette and thank you for coming back to us.

Sue

[kay]

I think that i should have put my posting on to this topic board instead. :!: As i see that angelstouch has had a similar
experience. I know Exactly what you are talking about. sorry for mixing them up to be honest going through some thing
like this, confused me that much i dont think i new what had happened.(OBE or NDE)
I am just thankful to be here.As i have a very young family to take care of.

kay.

[Peter]

Greetings angelstouch Thank you for sharing your NDE.

My NDE happened back in the 80's. To cut a long story short I'd pushed myself while I was ill to help out a friend. When i got home I could barely breath, an ambulance was called, and while I was waiting in the kitchen of the house, I started to 'move on'

I cant say I saw a light, because this sort of glow was all around me. It was just so peaceful and beautiful. the only way I can describe it is, it was kind of like taking every happy moment of your life, putting those with every feeling of love that you have ever had for, or felt from someone. Wrapping them up in a hug from the one you know loves you the most, and increase it a thousand times. It just felt so good. I seemed to be there for a long time just bathing in that warmth, when I became aware of a presence by the side of me. This presence just asked me (In my mind) if I really wanted to go now.
I thought about that for a bit, then a strange thought came to me, if I died in the kitchen I would get trapped in the house ( OK, I know it was nonsense, but I did not want to be stuck haunting that house LOL) so I replied in my mind to the presence, No Way!, or words to that effect .

Then I'm back in the kitchen fighting for breath again, with only one thought going through my head. I've got to get outside to die. I made it outside and thats when the ambulance arrived. eventually they got me sorted at the hospital, it did take them awhile though

Now of course this could have been oxygen starvation, and my own self-preservation instinct.

I know what I believe happened :wink:

[Coke-a-cola]

I doubt you would be stuck in the house if you died there. What would be the point? should be more if you're unaware or havn't fulfilled your duty in life yet.

[Sibyl]

Lots of people are unaware of spirit but they do not get stuck or have to remain.

Everyone who passes into spirit is escorted there and looked after

luv
vi

[meow]

I find it comforting to read about your experiences because I had a near death experience in 1999 that has completely changed my life.
I was violently attacked on my way home one night and ended up being dragged into some bushes and strangled. I realised I was dying and went into a panic. I felt so many emotions all at once.
The feeling of death was like a pulling (like the physical feeling when you wake suddenly from a dream). I didn?t want to leave my body because I knew I wouldn?t be able to get back to it. I asked myself what it would be like to be dead and then I was suddenly up in a tree, it was daylight now and I was looking down on my dead body. He had moved my legs round so that I couldn?t be seen from the road. A young man was pushing a bike up the hill, I swooped down to ask him for help but he saw my dead body and ran. I could feel his fear like an electric shock. The shock sent me catapulting up into the sky. I was out in space alone with nothing around me but darkness. I tortured myself with all the times I had been cold and pushed people away. I knew I deserved to be alone but the regret broke my heart. It was my heart that reached out and another soul came and helped me out of this void. As I came into contact with this soul we seemed to merge together and I could feel his humour. He made me feel safe and excited at the same time. We moved out of the dark into a greenish area, like sea green. I could feel the warmth of a light ahead and hear music.
I was so grateful to my guide. I knew he could feel my gratitude but I still tried to talk to him in English. He replied in a Mediterranean language I don?t know which one. I regretted never learning to speak a second language. I remember feeling his confusion about why I had so many regrets because he thought I was a good soul. I felt ashamed. I asked myself why I was such a cruel and vicious soul and this was when I became aware that I was eternal and have had many lives; some not human which would explain why I often felt very frustrated in my human life. I then remembered why I chose this life. My main reason is education. I need to learn so that I can connect with more and more souls. Not being able to talk to my Mediterranean guide was a perfect example of this.
We moved into the light now and below us was a sea of souls, they were all split into groups, some were larger than others. They all basked in the love and warmth of the light. I was taken to my soul group where I met some old friends from previous lives. We merged together and I felt I had come home but I still felt guilt that I didn?t deserve the love and protection of the light because I hadn?t achieved much in my life. I also felt I was letting my soul group down. This guilt pulled me away from my soul group and towards the light. The light could feel my guilt and asked me why I wanted to go back so much. I said I wanted a second chance to be better so that when I return I will have something to bring to my soul group and give back to you. I was then in two places at once. I was in my dads flat when he got the news and my mum?s kitchen when she got the news of my death. I could feel their pain, first disbelief and then intense grief. The power of this emotion pulled me back to earth and into my body.
I have struggled ever since with powerful emotions that I try to keep under control with meditation. I also feel terrible guilt and grief as I feel I have been given a second chance that I am wasting because I find it more difficult to connect with people than ever before. This is because I don?t feel a strong connection to the earth anymore or even to my body. I sometimes still feel dead. I don?t want to waste this second chance.
Does anyone else feel this way?

[newbie_student]

Hi all,

I am researching Near Death Experiences for a student project that I am working on and I will like to know if your near death experiences changed your life in anyway and how it felt for you to come back from that.

your help is GREATLY APPRECIATED.

thanks.

I think I should let you know now that if I am lucky and get other people on board I might be making a little student doumentary on this topic, if you are interested in being a part of it. Please let me know by sending me a PM.

[Designerhands]

In 1997 I was pregnant, it didn't go well, it was an ectopic pregnancy (out of the woumb). I had internal hemorrhage that went for hour before my doctor realized it. I was rushed to the clinic...had to wait for 5 more hours, by the time I got into the operating theater the bleeding was very bad. The local anaesthetia wasn't working, so they went for intravenous...didn't work either so finally I had the mask for general anaesthetic on from time to time. I closed my eyes and I heard the beep of the machine attached to me going faster and faster until it reached flatline. I was conscious, I could see the room and the people around, and then all became black. Suddenly I felt the presence of my 14 year old cousin, who had passed a year before. We both were pure energy, for a lack better word to describe it, we had no bodies, we were just conscious beings. I knew it was him, and he talked to me without words, only thoughts. He said: let me take you to a trip, to show you my world. He was fond of the universe, black holes and astronomic and geophysics stuff. So we went through a tunnel, a transparent one ( a worm hole), I could see outside of it and inside of it at the same time. In the inside wall were tinny images of my life and outside was the universe...nebulose, stars. It was the most wonderful thing I have ever seen. We travel together through this holes and he was making remarks regading the places we were visiting, that sadly I don't remember. I was in awe for everything, for the view, for my cousin for me being a conscious energy. Then, the trip through the tunnel stopped and my cousin said to me: "Here is where I stop, and you too...but you can choose, to go back or to stay here" Then I was alone in a total darkness, a nothingness so deep and yet so comforting and so full of love, that I have no words to describe it. I felt God as part of me and everything, being the source of this love and at the same time all that it was, all that existed, felt the connection. I wanted to saty there, where there was no pain, no loss, no grief just love. But then i had a vision of my family...my mom and dad terribly worried and ansious in the waiting room of the clinic, I saw my brother silently praying for me (I could hear his pray), I saw my elder sister walking around her office in worry, and my little sister waiting and trusting. Funnily enough I didn't see my then husband... Anyway, after that vision I thought ok, I can not go just like that, without warning, leaving them in sorrow just because I don't want to face the pain of loosing another child...it was too selfish. So I dediced to go back. Then my cousin appeared again, saying "I'm ok". I remember have said thank you to this blackness...and then I started earing the noises in the room, the doctors and nurses...and one saying " she's back". I open my eyes and I started to cry, and all I could say was " I saw him". Then the nurses started asking me how I was, I had them worried and so on, and all I could think of was in the experience I just had had.

It changed me, it brought hope, certainty and something else.

L&L

Desi

[Lance]

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