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Originally Posted by golonelygo

Hi. Im new here and lm feeling very suicidal..

Hi all, lm new here and l have taken the courage to say that l have been feeling suicidal for quite a long time... l have been depressed, lonely, isolated, rejected, confused, abused with addiction problems etc.. lve had relationship difficulties with so many people. l have NO freinds or family or professional that l could to talk about wanting to "give up" within the next 2 weeks, without the threat of been put in an assulym! l already have a suicide plan in place.

l go down to the beach at midnite to cry out my heart at the bright stars above me.. Then recently l walked back and l felt some sort of "calming type love" inside me... But lm still by myself and in so much immense pain, but lm really curious as to what happens to souls like me who commit suicide... lm getting so much confusing and conflicting answers here in the forums... Whatever ur answers are l hope the are reassuring rather than full of fear!!! lm also NOT a young man anymore, as lm 48 years old. With my death coming soon lve been going to bookshops reading a lot about afterlife and spirituality. l used to educated with fear about HELL and coming back with same suicidal condition. Gees (l laughed) if l came back in this same condition in recarnation, gees, l will hold the world record for the most times a person who continues to suicide for eternity/forever and ever..

Please help with my questions

yours sincerly , Mick from down under (yeh l wonder if will go down under)

please dont give up life really can get better...god bless you xxxxxxxx

[golonelygo]

thank you for all your kind support and love....l haven,t felt that kindness or that type of love for what seems like an eternity... l found a supportive book that has spirits (who all committed suicide) talking to a young intelligent meduim and it is good to get their perspective of what their spirit world is like...and they echo the same sentiment as you all in this forum... lm about to call the gp now and take Jacky's advice and write my situation on paper for him to see. As l find it hard to express myself when lm in such a low empty condition.. l will try to stay in touch.... Micky from aussieland

[techdogg]

I have been a manic depresive for years but suicide was not my choice even though I did think about it.I got envolved in different causes like the elderly or fund raisers most of my time has been alone like going to the movies sometimes a good cry is good.For me trust was a big issue over time it gets better.

[keakahona]

I'm so glad your going to see your GP Mick, I know from experience that when we feel so negative about our lives, trying to change it can seem like such a huge task that we give up before we even start and being depressed makes it even harder, but your already taking that first step by visiting your doctor so well done !!

Please keep us updated on how it goes.

Blessings
Jacky xx

[golonelygo]

Hi all, lm back after going through so much that l had to take time to swallow it all down. Basically l just found out from a freind that l could have Aspergers Syndrome and after looking at all the symptoms, l ticked them ALL..lt's a special type of autustic behaviour which l was kind of aware for a very long time.. but this validates it more. People with Aspergers tend to absorb so much knowledge which explains why lve been reading a lot about religion, spirituality, history(war) and the afterlife etc, etc...and they are prone to depression if not cared for,,,which explains my chronic suicidal problems

lm making some enquiries to see some qualified proffesionals in this area that l haven't heard before...

Once again thank you all for your thoughts, advice and experience... Take care and hope to be back soon.....Michael from down under...

[gazzAB]

Lovely to hear that yo are looking more in to it.

Please accept my best wishes for your journey in life

hi Mick was so sad to hear how you have been feeling, like someone said people do care, I felt the same a few years ago I felt totally as though my life had ended, I couldnt face it anymore and decided to end all the pain, that night I took a massive overdose but my daughter phoned not long after and realised something was terribly wrong, she phoned an ambulance and was rushed to hospital, in hospital I was told I was near to death my heart had stopped twice and they had to shock me 3 times, anyway when I came to I still wanted to die and felt so bad that they had saved me. I went home eventually and suddenly realised how much my family loved me especially my daughter and felt terrible I had put them through what I had. I began to pick the pieces up through my doctor and councellor and although it was small steps at first ,I began to get better little by little with the help of others. But today as I am ,I am so glad now I did live to see the beauty around me, to see my daughter grow up and have a child of her own wouldnt have missed it for the world now. I have at long last found that elusive peace and happiness and although it took a long time it was worth every minute of waiting. you are never alone really, and hope you can find the strength to go to the doctors who can help you onto the right track to recovery because believe me it is well worth it in the end, look at me I am a survivor and feel sure you could be too and hope some day you will find peace and happiness as I have done. I wish you peace, love and happiness xxxxxxxxx

[Khrissy]

A doctor might help, and madication might help. but if you tell a doctor your feeling suicidal they will admit you as inpatient and you'll probably be staying there for at least two weeks.

I have no idea what happens in the after life but if you feel the same after and your just a depressed ghost stuck in limbo that would be a crapshoot too.

I can imagine feeling more depressed after suicide , its just probably what happens you have less power dead to do things you might wanna do even though i bet you feel like the only thing you want to do is kill yourself

I have these feeling sometimes and they just make me sad thinking about it. really I go through low depressions and i often get intrusive thoughts of hurting myself. I feel like its a bad spirit around me putting these thoughts in my head.

I told it today whatever it is Get out, please go away your not welcome here

in Jesus naame leave me alone, In Jesus name leave, In Jesus name leave this home

today I've been feeling okay after that. I woke up this morning and started crying because my unborn babies father told me he didn't care about me and i was hurt

when i'm crying i look around in the room and i see movement in the air. I've had a couple of readings done and they have said i have spirits around me pulling me in all different directions that i can't make up my mind but it helped to tell what ever it is to just leave and leave me alone

the thoughts for me are visually intrusive and very vivid

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Originally Posted by Khrissy

A doctor might help, and madication might help. but if you tell a doctor your feeling suicidal they will admit you as inpatient and you'll probably be staying there for at least two weeks.

I have no idea what happens in the after life but if you feel the same after and your just a depressed ghost stuck in limbo that would be a crapshoot too.

I can imagine feeling more depressed after suicide , its just probably what happens you have less power dead to do things you might wanna do even though i bet you feel like the only thing you want to do is kill yourself

I have these feeling sometimes and they just make me sad thinking about it. really I go through low depressions and i often get intrusive thoughts of hurting myself. I feel like its a bad spirit around me putting these thoughts in my head.

I told it today whatever it is Get out, please go away your not welcome here

in Jesus naame leave me alone, In Jesus name leave, In Jesus name leave this home

today I've been feeling okay after that. I woke up this morning and started crying because my unborn babies father told me he didn't care about me and i was hurt

when i'm crying i look around in the room and i see movement in the air. I've had a couple of readings done and they have said i have spirits around me pulling me in all different directions that i can't make up my mind but it helped to tell what ever it is to just leave and leave me alone

the thoughts for me are visually intrusive and very vivid

Hi Krissy, I have had to alter your post slightly due to you using a swear word, swear words are not tolerated in any form even abbreviated or with letters replaced with stars etc. as some find them quite offensive so can I kndly ask you to refrain from using them as I would not like to see your posts deleted thanks.

IMO there is no such place as limbo it is a man made concept used as a form of control over the masses by using fear of the unknown. As for bad spirits influencing your thoughts I don't go for that either, spirit come in love not hate otherwise we mediums would not work with them. We all have a light and dark side to our nature but that is why we have a conscience but it is us not spirit creating these thoughts. Our thoughts swing with our moods if we are depressed we get dark depressive thoughts etc it's not s[pirit placing these on us the responsibility lays firmly with us and we need to deal with them in a positive manner imo.

luv n light

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