[rina2000au]

I have recently started meditating and have been enjoying it quite a bit. The problem began a few days ago when I was meditating and was visualising "my garden" - a tranquil place that I like to go to in my mind - and all of a sudden I see these yellow mischevious/evil yellow eyes staring at me through these bushes. I immediately felt a sence of tremendous fear, and I couldnt finish my meditation.

My question is, is it possible that these evil eyes belonged to a shadow animal guide? If so, how do I know when it is "safe" to "deal with it". At the moment I am too afraid to go back to my garden again.

I have met one of my animal guides recently, it was a fox, and I didnt feel afraid of him/her. So this feeling was entirely new to me. I was under the impression that my garden was a safe haven for me. So I was quite suprised to see a pair of eyes staring out at me with an evil twinge to them.

I should also add, that on the same day, I was at a Hospital in the Emergency Department, watching a procedure being carried out on a patient (I am a medical student), when I felt something tugging the bottom hem of my jumper twice. I turned around, but found nobody there. This Emergency Department also sees children. Could these two episodes be related?

Any advice would be much appreicated.

[NICE]

Hi Rina :P

Make sure you cover all the bases of protecting yourself before starting any meditation (Not knowing your level of awareness/abilities) Sometimes In meditation scary things come to mind - reflecting apart of self that we are afraid to acknowledge etc,etc, - Its a really big "mind field" - It could be many things...But don't let It stop you from continuing your meditation - It sounds like you are connecting well... In my experiences many a demon type creature has made Its self known to me either In meditation/dreams and we just have to work through It...& try to understand It & love It & move on 2 the nxt level what ever It maybe!! (Not for the faint hearted -ho ho)



Take care x dazzle x

[rina2000au]

Hi Dazzle,
Thanks for your reply. I have been looking at protective measures. In answer to your query, I am not a very experienced meditator. I have meditated on and off for many years, but have only begun to do so consistently over the last few weeks.

When I meditate I try and cast a white light all around me as a protective energy. I am also looking into buying some obsidian and hematite jewellery for grounding and protection. Is there anything else you would recommend?

Thanks,
Sabrina

[NICE]

Hi again Rina

Im not what you would call religious but try opening with a prayer of sorts - pick some personal words for yourself to say out loud or In your mind something that would be easily repeated each time you sit for meditation - as time goes by the prayer/words will gain in strength for you. Sulphur, black tourmaline crystals are also good to help disperse negative energy. Carry on with your method of bringing In the light ... :lol:

x dazzle x

[Etheress]

Hi Rina, I had a similar experience when I first started meditating.

In my case it was because of my own fears that I felt a bad presence. I was fearful of seeing ghosts(even though I wanted to), or being haunted or possessed etc. When I finally admitted that I was afraid and accepted that although I probably would run screaming when I saw a ghost, it was unlikely that I would ever be in real danger, I no longer had the ominous presence when meditating. I was only spooking myself.

Not sure if this could be what's happening for you, it's just an idea. Just be sure to take protective measures, as the others have mentioned, and you will be fine.

Take care! xxx

[Siantia]

Hey,

Did they look anything like the yellow eyes they plaster all over this site??? - just a suggestion, maybe they subconsciously freak you out :S

But seriously, when I started intensifying my meditation I would see things that frightened me - now I had protected myself so I know it was nothing evil. Portection works - if you ask your guides to protect you and you visualise the while light of spirit around you and you consciously make the effort to say to yourself you are totally protected then you can then be sure that anything 'scary' you experience isn't a danger - and most likely, is coming from inside you. When we develop all of our fears and our negativity has to be seived out - it has to filter, just let anything that frightens you pass though you and let it go - don't dwell on it and don't let it control you, it's just your own fears.

Another thing is...sometimes things that aren't scary scare us. If I saw my guide I would scream - but my guide is all love. So why would i scream? Because I am not ready to see him yet. So...maybe what you're seeing is just new so it's scary, but it's actually something very harmless. We all are scared of different things for different reasons. When I first started seeing Egyptian eyes while meditation I was freaked - but then I realised it was my guides way ofhelping me to realise he was egyptian.

Blessings
xxx

[Luvey]

When young (in my 30s) I would wake from dreams of demons and something really evil trying to take me over. I would fight and fight it. Then one night the evil was so all consuming I was becoming weaker and weaker. It was so powerful that the moment I felt its presence when in my dream state I woke up. On the last night it ever bothered me, I thought I was going to die....all my strength was gone, and with the last breath I called out to Jesus...and it left and has never returned. That was a long time ago now. I believe we live in a "mind" universe and the power of our own mind is the most powerful weapon we have. I am not a religious person, but I do believe in Jesus. I have since found that even sending white light out at a negative entity or surrounding yourself in white light will protect you. Its important to remember that our minds are powerful.... and its very important not to feel fear and to believe in yourself and your abilities. Fear is a mind killer.
I haven't seen anything scary while meditating like eyes looking at me, but I have had an alien appear to me, and it didn't frighten me, and one night I met up with a group of spirits, and at first they looked so powerful that I was frightened, but told myself not to be afraid and they came and imparted information to me.

I should also add, that on the same day, I was at a Hospital in the Emergency Department, watching a procedure being carried out on a patient (I am a medical student), when I felt something tugging the bottom hem of my jumper twice. I turned around, but found nobody there. This Emergency Department also sees children. Could these two episodes be related?

It may only be related in as much as you are opening yourself to spirit and getting in tune with other realms. Therefore your focus shifts. And, I feel spirits know this. The tugging at your jumper sounds to me like a child spirit letting you know that it was there..... How lovely.

Luvey

[Leebi]

WOW - I was going to say reading your post was like a sign from above, but then again given the nature of this forum that's probably not too far off.

I was just (about half an hour ago) using a guided meditation track. I started to go deeper than I've ever experienced before. I was thoroughly enjoying it until what I saw as a black eye infront of me started bearing down. It came closer and got bigger, until I felt like it was trying to infiltrate my mind. At that point I freaked out and suddenly jolted out of my meditation.

Then I registered on this forum especially so I could ask about it, and there this thread was - right at the top.

Sorry to sound melodramatic, but I got the feeling that it was dark, and somehow blocking me. Afterwards, I got a strong visual and auditory image of me (looking slightly physically different, also somehow more grounded, dynamic, stronger and more, well, me, but definitely in the present), screaming to be let out. Then I cried because I know this is the girl I feel I lost a few years ago, who just wants to come back to life.

How do I find out what this dark thing is blocking me, and how do I release that other me I saw?

I appreciate lots of meditation might be involved, but I'm thinking of trying to locate a healer to see if they might help. I'm quite inexperienced, yet desperate.

Thanks

[Luvey]

Leebi wrote

WOW - I was going to say reading your post was like a sign from above, but then again given the nature of this forum that's probably not too far off.

There seems to be synchronicity happening there Leebi.

Leebi wrote

Sorry to sound melodramatic, but I got the feeling that it was dark, and somehow blocking me. Afterwards, I got a strong visual and auditory image of me (looking slightly physically different, also somehow more grounded, dynamic, stronger and more, well, me, but definitely in the present), screaming to be let out. Then I cried because I know this is the girl I feel I lost a few years ago, who just wants to come back to life.

There are so many things that this could be but from your description of a strong visual and auditory image of yourself it points to your own shadow side or as some call it your pain body. At some point you split... When I saw my own it was like a cloud of black energy with my face engraved on it. What we don't realise is that we are co-creators, and have immense power. I believe the pain body is like a Tulpa that we have created with our pain, frustration, anger, suffering etc and its attached to our hearts / chest region. The way to deal with it is not to run away from it, but to love yourself; love it. It was all part of your journey. Love it with compassion and acceptance. You may like to read the book "A New Earth" by Eckhart Tolle, where he writes about this subject.

Leebi wrote

I appreciate lots of meditation might be involved, but I'm thinking of trying to locate a healer to see if they might help. I'm quite inexperienced, yet desperate.

Maybe not so much mediation, but acceptance and love of that part of you.

I have a long time friend who use to be a powerful Reiki Healer. She told me of an experience she had with a woman that had come to her for help. The woman was in a deep depression, and hadn't been bathing properly or taking care of herself. On the second healing session the woman started screaming vile obsenities and something flew out of the person and up the arms of the healer and out through the top of her head. What the woman had was a nasty little entity that had attached itself to her and was sucking her energy. With that last healing the woman felt better and never came back. I have had my own experience in dealing with these nasty little critters.

I don't know if a healer could help you with this or not?.. you can try, anything is worth trying. But from my own experience which seems pretty much similar to yours?. The best way to deal with it is what I have described above.

I sincerely hope I have been of some help to you Leebi.

Luvey

EDIT: I should mention also that the evil thing that was sucking all my energy from me was not the same thing as seeing my shadow side / pain body and dealing with it. It was something very different. Meditating is good because it helps you to see and understand these things.

[r0me0]

Oooh i read something about this, and there are certain people who can see the evil eye upon someone, there is a way to remove it if you think you have it, but i dont think it is allowed to be posted here, it's said that if you see dark speccles at times it could be a sign you have it, i could be wrong, just what i read, but maybe in your case, you could be one of these special people who can see them, and it is showing you someone who has it, and you need to get passed it and focus on what or who is behind them.